Friday, June 15, 2012

Nine, Ten, and Eleven

*As of April 1, 2012, we have been waiting nine months
*As of May 1, 2012, we have been waiting ten months
*As of June 1, 2012, we have been waiting eleven months

It has been a long time since I have blogged. A friend asked if it was because I was sad that the adoption process was taking so long. The blog delay is not because of sadness, or anything like that, it just that I haven't had a chance to get around to it lately. But, that doesn't mean I don't think about our little one in Ethiopia a lot, a whole lot. Dear one,you are on our hearts everyday

As I reflect on nine months waiting on you, our little lady number two, my mind goes to 5 years ago, when I carried Ryann for nine months in my womb. It was nine months full of anticipation, excitement, and at times, anxiety. Towards the end of my pregnancy, I was really uncomfortable, swollen, tired, impatient--counting the days when I would see her, the precious baby I had harbored for nine, long months.

I have carried YOU for nine months, in my heart. It has been nine months full of anticipation and excitement. Much like, telling my family and friends that I was pregnant five years ago, I was so very excited to tell our loved ones that we were indeed adopting YOU. Mark and I had talked for years and years about adoption, and it was so fun to tell everyone that we were acting on our hopes and dreams of adding you to our family.

These nine months have also been filled with anxiety. The highs of being finished with paperwork and being place on the official waitlist were quickly replaced with lows, as the wait times grew longer. and longer. and longer. I have shed many a tear, but have never doubted, not once, that this was the Lord's plan for our family. YOU are God's plan for us.

These past nine months have also been a tad uncomfortable. People, for the most part have been really supportive. They have asked really good questions, and have even asked how they can pray specifically for us,which has really touched me. A few people have asked really weird questions too...which is another post for another day. I love honesty, but some of the tones and implications behind some of these comments give me pause. Being somewhat uncomfortable is good for me. It has allowed me to really formulate answers and thoughts in my head and not just answer out of pure emotion, etc.

Finally, these past nine months have been filled with Peace, of all things. This has been a surprise to me, but oh so wonderful. I have such a peace about YOU. I love to just sit and think about you. We talk about you so very often. I pray for you. I pray for your mother. I pray for your father. I pray for your country. I pray for us. I pray for our country. I pray that we look to the Lord always as He designs and defines our family, that we will ultimately be His Family.

Nine Months Waiting with Little Lady #1

Nine Months Waiting for Little Lady #2